Ever listen to a song that just totally overwhelms you? Fills you to the brim with so much emotion you can hardly contain it? Your fingers tingle with adrenaline and your face goes numb? Yeah, it’s pretty toight.
The beginning of ‘Bonecrusher’ by Senses Fail does that to me. The electric guitar whining and the all-the-sudden attack of the drums really gets me going.
Onto other news!
I’ve been playing quite a bit of WoW (probably more than I should, but as Andrew so eloquently put it, we’re indulging a bit). I feel as if Throne had a huge swell and now we’re slowing down a little bit, something that makes me a little irritated. I think I need to have a conversation with my partners tonight. Something we don’t do hardly enough.
Last Friday I was assigned a ‘landing page’ to build an hour before closing (for anyone that’s not aware it’s SEO garbage that I wish the industry would do away with). I completed it early this morning, well before I thought I would. Partly because of the music I mentioned at the beginning of the broadcast. err. article.. err. blog post (don’t mind me, I just wish I was more important)
Hope everyone is having or is looking forward to having an amazing spring break. I know I am.
I had a fire under my ass today, no doubt. Angel and I have finished the alterations to the Throne Studios business cards, I’ve setup a 1-800 number for Throne, scheduled a print date for the business cards, and have my Mother bringing home a short list of could-be clients.
Overall today has been incredibly progressive and I couldn’t be more satisfied with that.
Finally got Cody to apply my script to auto-linkify his www.thinkitpostit.com links. His site is so cool, I actually enjoy using it from time to time.
Becca and I seem to be of the understanding that we’re just friends, and don’t plan on changing that for the time being.. I think I can deal with that, especially if I keep myself busy. I’m going to try really hard to keep our ‘friendship’ at a point where we don’t drift. I know we’re both really bad about that, and I think it could do us both some good learning how to tend to a healthy friendship rather than an unhealthy relationship.
Pretty happy with the overall quality of life right now, not too stoked to play Counter-Strike tonight, but I’ve managed to get Cody and the guys to accept an hour to an hour and a half play time schedule. Secretly I’m more excited about playing WoW and discussing Throne with my parents and Angel. Mwaaaahahahaha.
Hope everyone else is doing as well as me, and if not then quit reading my blog and do something a little less gay.
hahaha wtf?
i don’t think i’ll ever know. looks like i need to go eat some bean food with my compadre.
and to make things worse, I have to buy WoW time for my fucking account now. mofucka!!!!
Lynne: Two of my friend’s parents are in-town. Can’t do shit all weekend :[
Reef: Aww, I guess no booze or boobs.
Reef: Or Schmirnoffs and schlongs, whichever the case may be.
Heaven is not a place that you go when you die, it’s that moment in life when you actually feel alive.
I didn’t sleep with lumberg.
I often ask myself what separates the successful from the ‘otherwise’. There is a skeleton key to success, or ‘keys’ if you will. I’ve spent a lot of my younger life exploring these options, read several books on the subject, and experimented first-hand.
It’s become more and more apparent that persistence, patience, and vigor are three of the absolutely necessary tools in a successful person’s repertoire.
I believe I’ve been able to wrangle two of the three necessary tools, one continues to evade me. I’ve learned to be patient, and I have a lot of vigor. Persistence! It’s key!
I struggle with a lack of gumption, and I think it may be the one thing holding me back.
I recently found myself at square one, looking around feeling hopeless. I’ve since picked myself up by the bootstraps, and I have to say it feels pretty good. I’m finally doing the things I always should have.
Being comfortable at the age of 20 is not what I need, and I wish it wasn’t true. I am not done growing, will never be done learning, and have so much more to offer this world than being a boyfriend (something I’m not even good at!)
I will love again, just not right now. It’s time to focus on Reef and feeding the beast within.
Well, I just keep chugging along. Hung out with Angel and Andrew last night, always nice.
Angel and I stayed up till like 4AM playing Counter-Strike in a pub server. Haven’t had that much fun playing CS in a looooong time. Just multi-jumping around, joking around with the admins, and making those CS girls go wild! hahahaha.
Practice with MouseSpaz today at 6:00est, developed 3 new strats this morning, I’m more organized for this shit than I am for school. Got my little notebook, folder with tabs, sorted by maps and rounds.
Becca seems to be doing pretty well, her blog says so at least. I’m happy to hear that, but it is bitter sweet. Kind of like seeing CONCEPT win a match right after I leave. Proud of them and that I had something to do with their success.
I hope everyone is having a great weekend so far, and that we all continue to move forward. All of us are here in this moment together, whether we realize it or not.
Sometimes people surprise you, and more times than not it’s in a bad way. Fortunately I got a heaping dose of both.
My friend Nick forced my eyes open to a few facts I’ve kept my eyes closed to for all too long. I am incredibly appreciative to him for his support and gumption towards keeping me sane. Just when you think there’s no-one out there someone always comes up big.
In other news I just drank a 32-ounce monster energy drink labeled the “BFC” and I’m jittery as fuck. I feel like I’m about to jump out the window.
I’ve taken it upon myself to help Fire’s Xtreme-Jumping thing-ma-jigger with laying out their design and plugging it into e107. Should be easy enough, and I get free jumping lessons!
Also been discussing a lot of things with Dboorn, turned into a cool dude to talk to. Looking forward to reviewing strat-calling and in-game techniques with him.
Hope everyone else is doing well.
I’ve been thinking a lot lately (scary, I know) – what separates a man from a boy?
Is it age, hair on your nuts, or something more?
Over the past week or so I’ve been dealing with the repercussions of my decisions. Something my charmed life has kept me sheltered from for all too long. I believe that this is what’s best for me.
Rebecca and I are no longer, and I can’t convey how wrong that sounds, looks, feels, tastes, and smells. There is nothing “right” about it. Once again I find myself face-palming. Fuck my short fuse! Unfortunately love doesn’t seem to be enough, otherwise we’d never argue, ever.
I left my Counter-Strike team as well, and to my great joy they won their most recent match without me! Little fuckers.
That all is a mess, but I have never been so stoked to play Counter-Strike with my old friends. Cody, Paul, Steve, Glenn, and I have reformed ‘MouseSpaz’. Looking forward to a lot of hard practicing, and a flawless season.
I like this blogging thing. Maybe I’ll do it again sometime.